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back in the states [Sep. 28th, 2009|01:56 pm]
[Current Location |la mia stanza]
[Current Mood | gloomy]
[la musica |L'Italiano by Toto <3]

This summer after Taverny, I went to Bagnolet (end of the Metro 3) in Paris. It was nice to spend some time with family and get the chance to see all the Paris sights: Le Tour Eifel, Louvre, Montparnasse, Champs Elysses, Arc di Triumph, Euro Disney, Giardini di Luxembourg, and many more. I was pretty much exhusted every day I would go out on the town exploring. My favorite part was simply getting lost in the city and wandering around. A metro was never more than a few meters away so if I ever got THAT tierd I would simply hop on and go home. I spend a day in Beavuais visitng more family. I had so much fun hanging out with the kids, swimming, and meeting family!
 
After a week and half of Paris I headed to the most amazing place on earth, Venice.
It was real late, 10PM, when I got to the "Queen on the Adriatic"....techincally I flew into Treviso. I was so confident: getting off the plane, buying my ticket in Italian, getting on the bus.  I didn't have to question anything. I was finally back in a land where I understood everything, mostly everything....piano piano of course.  It was really easy, simply a 6E bus ticket to Piazale Roma. The bus ride was lovely. Getting close to Venezia was so exciting! Besides the little kids behind me saying random stuff every 2 seconds, it was a peaceful 40 minutes. Then a quick 1,50E (student price) vaporetto ride to my new home, Palanca on Guidecca.(Of course, the one time I don't validate my abondamento the guys come around checking, plus the fact that it was well after 11PM, at least I was only charged a student price) As I got close to my stop it hit me that I would have to navigate my way to the dorms, in the middle of the night, on an island I've never been to. I luckily ran into two of my teachers on the vaporetto. I tapped them on the shoulder wondering if they would remember me. They greeted me with a "SEVAN!", bachigner, and other Armenian greetings, needless to say - they remembered me. We made it to Junghans, the student dorms for the Universita di Venezia, which turns into a hostel during the summer. Once I got there a saw many familiar faces, it was like no time had passed. I gave the receptionist my Pass-a-porto, got my chiave, opened my door to find my new roommate, Nicole from New York, sound asleep. I left her in peace and went outside to catch up with everyone. I coudln't stop smiling! After a 'fire alarm' where no one except for Hasmig and Irene (an Italian I just met) came out of their rooms. I finally got to sleep, well after 3AM.
That is how my start in Venezia started this year, 180degree difference from last year which included a broken suitcase, hot burning tears, not being able to catch my breath, the worse break down I've ever had in my life, and an hour+ long long distance phone call home (It was by far the worst day in my whole life....last year).

The next day, I awoke in Venezia!, finally....what I have been waiting for, for way too long! We got ready, introductions, then out to meet up the group for our walk to our first day of classes. Seeing even more familiar faces was probably one of the best feelings ever, maybe even more than being in Venice! I caught up with Hasmig more, the whole way. We got the vaporetto and walked less than one 'block' to our new school. I love how close it was to the dorms, even if it included a vaporetto ride. It was still WAY closer than last year. We got to the University and again....MORE familiar faces...the ITALIANS! The lovley Italians. It was great to see all of them, with a few new faces. It was like a dream, seeing these amazing people again after what seemed to be an eternity.

We all crammed into one room that was probably not ment to hold all of us. It was disgustingly hot, but it all felt so good! Sitting next to Hasmig, surrounded by the more genuine people in the whole world. We all introduced ourselves and got divided up into our classes. I went to the second level again, which I was fine with, after all, all the Italians were in the class; my secret plan to work on my Italian was working!

That first week of classes were nothing but a blurr. I felt time slow down as I started to enjoy this amazing country and city I was in. We started out routines of waking up early to hit up a Bar and get a Cafe e Cappuccio! Where on our second day the bartender new our order! On the 4th day they were closed for the summer. Saddest day in those three weeks, except my last day there.
I remember walking around, in slow motion soaking it all in again. In the begining I was afraid that I'd "seen it all and had been there done that". But it was the complete opposite. Every little crack was different, we were living on a completly different side and island of Venice. There were new side streets to explore, new Vaporetto routes, new gelaterias, new bars, new pizzerias. The little bit of worry and anxiety about this year not being the same flew away as fast as a pigion in Piazza San Marco...which acutally are very slow/ bad analogy. My anxieties flew away as fast as...a little speed boat on the way to the Lido!! Much better.

All I wanted to do the first week was hug everyone there from last year and stare at them. I wanted, no needed someone to pinch me to make sure it wasn't all a dream. I would wake up, look out my lovley window, standing on my tip toes I would just soak in the canal and the beautiful architecture.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4rR4I56hdk&feature=related
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one week until Venice!! [Jul. 29th, 2009|07:38 pm]
[Current Location |Bagnolet]
[Current Mood | tired]
[la musica |Le Journal]

Allora...
Tuesday 21. Had fun with family in Taverny. We hung out, I packed, later swimming, then Hagop brought me to Mokurs where Mesrop and the kids picked me up. Im now in Bagnolet.
Wednesday 22.  Went to Montparnasse with Gaiane. Its a tall skyscraper where you get a 360° view of Paris. Then we walked an hour to the Eiffle Tower and layed under it for about 30 mins recovering from our long walk. Later made our way to Mokurs in Clignancourt and then headed home. We spend a good 6 to 7 hours simply walking. I was exhusted when we got back. I talked to Hagop and Carine, letting them know all was alright and I had arrived.
Thursday 23. "The metro is disgusting. So hot, so stuffy." Slept till noon and just relaxed at home. It was plesent. Talked to Chirstine.
Friday 24. Crazy day. Im probably never taking a 7 year old without his mother anywhere!
So, I left with Gaiane and Vahan. We got off at Notre Dame and walked around. It wasnt 20 minutes later and Vahan started complaining about everything in the world. So instead of going to Institut du Monde Arabe. I sat on a bench with the kids for about 30 minutes, not doing anything. Then we found a quaint place to eat with a beuaitful view of the Seine and Notre Dame. After almost 2 hours later [i love the slow lunches of Europe] we walked through some cute little streets, very touristy. We started making out way over to Jardin de Luxembourg where we got caught in a rain shower. It was fun! Finally made it to the garden, its small but relaxing. Rained on and off the whole time. Then walked more making it to Montparnasse, I bought a cute tunic in an Asian store, got glace [icecream], got harrased by a hobo, and ran to the metro, making it home by 6.30.
Saturday 25. Euro-Disney. 2 hour metro and train ride away. I think its a tiny bit smaller, the only main difference is that Inidan Jones is like an amusment park ride, but more dangerous. My head hurt for a good half hour after that ride. All in all it was a fun day. I love Disneyland. So many different people, so many different accents. I helped this guy who spoke Spanish, until the French guy behind the counter understood him.
Sunday 26. Spend the day at Garos house. It was so much fun. Mokur was there, and one of Garos kids, Justine who is 5 and an absolute doll. We just ate and drank and played in the front yard all day. Very relaxing. Downside - 3 mosquito bites on one foot. We got back around midnight and visited friends on the 18th floor of this building where they live. The friends have an amazing view of Paris and it was stunning at night. The Eiffel Tower all lit up along with the faint view of the Arc de Triumph in the distance. Beautiful. I passed out when we got home.
Monday 27. Another nothing day of sleeping and laying around. Much needed.
Tuesday 28. Another full day in the city with Gaiane.
Wednesday 29. Today. Nothing day, slept a lot. =]

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Bisou [Jul. 15th, 2009|06:56 pm]
[Current Location |Taverny, France]
[Current Mood | blissful!]

Actually, lots has happened; well considering.
So I went to a Wax Museaum with Carine and Shauna which was actually really fun and the people in the museaum actually looked real!
I had the best time just walking around and taking pictures of the city. We went by the Opera and Gnomie came out! We saw a model taking pictures behind the Opera; ha.
The next day we drove 2 hrs. to Versailles, where we walked through the gardens. Theyre beautiful! Not too expensive either! We spend a long time there and then headed back. The drive was long to say the least and with a screaming baby it didnt help. This baby is the only baby Ive met who does not fall asleep the second she gets in the car. Even through her nap she was awake, so she was super cranky. yay.
The next few day was spent at home, BBQing as usual.
On Sunday we all went into Paris to visit Mokur which was.....interesting. But it was nice nontheless. We ate Lebanese food and then came home. Before dinner of; you guessed it BBQ; we went for a bike ride. It was beautiful! We went through this little forest and it reminded me SO much of Munich. Absolutly beautiful, the air was fresh, people were out just hanging out. It was a lovley day.
On Monday we went to the beach, Toquet. 2 hours away. I got burned. We got there; ate, hung out at the very salty beach. The water was cool but perfect because of the harsh sun beating down on us. I built a Chatau with John and got sand all over the place....on the bright side, my skin was very soft for a day or so. While at the beach we got a call from the group Mickaels with and found out he was going to the hospital because of an inflamed appedndix. So, we rushed home and Hagop left to go be with him 6 hours away in the S. of France.
Yesterday I sat outside and burned my stomach. I finished reading one of the two books I have and hung out with the family.
Today....what a day. Carines brother said he was sending his son today. So we went to meet him at the train station in Paris....it turns out he missed his train and he didnt have Carines number so we waited until Hagop called us telling us he wasnt coming. We got some Kebabs and headed on our way back to Taverny.
fyi. even people who live here dont know their way around the metro. I find it amusing, because I dont have to worry about where Im going. We came back and I crashed. I was so tierd and napped.
I have been relaxing like no other, its so nice! Reading and writting and eating and trying out my French while practicing my Armenian and Spanish. Ha, pretty amusing if I do say so myself. 

Ive been talking to a girl who lives in NY thats going to Venice too, which is prety cool! Im getting so excited for that. To be in Italy! I wonder how its going to be this year, probably really different, but Im excited.
I bought some postcards and wrote them out; so Ill hopefully be sending them out soon. HA, if I remember.

When you dont understand the language you end up lost in your own thoughts A LOT! Its so distracting somethimes. I start reminiscing or just thinking about buying a one way ticket out here when I graduate.
Julie should be comming home from China soon; I cant wait to hear about her adventures.

I had such an amazing time in LA with friends frol Italy; I wont go another year without seeing them again.
Also I want a vespa....but I want to travel more.
I hope I get that stupid MJC class, I might try at Merced too. I just need to take it this semester so I dont have to stress my hopefully last semester at Stan. Then one more semseter of English classes and seminar classes and ill be DONE! I dont know if I want to go through the credential program or take a year off and travel. I reallly want to travel.
Im having a great time and havent gotten sick *knock on wood*. ha.
Au Reviour!
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babies dancing never get old [Jul. 9th, 2009|09:32 am]
http://www.youtube.com/v/XQcVllWpwGs&hl=fr&fs=1&
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yesterday [Jul. 9th, 2009|09:24 am]
I went shopping here in town.
I bought a coat.....an eggplant purple coat, kinda cargo.y. I love it. That and a few shirts and big rings.

The family is great.
I think I`m picking French up rather quickly, now what I should be working on is my Armenian.

Au Revoir


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BOUNJOUR TOUS! [Jul. 8th, 2009|01:47 pm]
[Current Location |Taverny, France]
[Current Mood | yay!!]
[la musica |amazing music]

DISCLAIMER: the keyboards here are way different.

I finally caught up on sleep! Two weeks of it!!!
The music here is SO cool!
The Air Canada flight was so much more comfortable than United anf Lufthansa; who Im never flying international again!!!

I met a girl from the states on facebook, so at least ill know one person going into it. So im less freaked out about it being on the other side of the island, Venice is still Venice!!! Def my favorite place in Italy.

The weather here is well, perfect. About to rain, nice and cool. Apparently I brought it with me because just a day before I came it was 32°C, which is like 104° Ive been told.
I honestly cannot belive Im back here already! It feels like I never left!
I got to see the family; Hagop [ my uncle] picked me up from the airport. [His wife] Carine and the two little ones are here. John [5] and Shuana [1]. Mickael and Steeven are on a trip for twoish weeks. Plus a cousin, Ani is here, shes like 16 I think.

Lots of people asked how I communicate with everyone and well I just do. In Armenian or Spanish and Im picking up a lot of French. I actually understand a lot of it. =] Very proud of myself. Its like fight vs. flight. I have to do I do.

Today is gonna be just another relaxing day, which I really need and tomorrow I think were gonna go sightseeing.
Did I mention that France gets all the cool music first and crappy music second? In US we get all the crappy music first and if were lucky the awesome European music second...if that.

I miss you all, even if I do love this tremendously!!
Like Alexandria said: This is what Ive been talking about the WHOLE YEAR! and I did it, I made it back!
These next two months are just gonna fly by...ps my Italian phone itsnt working, but ill see what I can do.

PS. I dnt have my camera cord, so the probability of you seeing pictures are pretty slim to non.
OMG Lady Gagas new vid has ITALY all over it!!! I believe its Little Italy, but still: Love!

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Cedrick the Gnome. [Jul. 5th, 2009|11:55 pm]
[Current Location |Turlock]
[Current Mood | ecstatic]


LA was borderline amazing! =]
After spending one day in LA we all decided to go to Vegas for a day and visit Hailey!
It was so awesome seeing everyone. It was long due.
After coming back from Vegas we went to a Reggae concert on Santa Monica pier/beach. SooooooOooooOOooo awesome!
I decided again...just like I do every trip to LA that i'm moving there one day.
The next day I went with Casey to Natalie's work on Venice beach. We ate breakfast and walked to Santa Monica where Casey and I spent the whole day shopping.
The week was saddly ending...after a party at Natalie's cousins' and a night of no sleep. We left for the airport at like 4am and I came back to TurDlock.

Seeing Natalie and Casey and Hailey was the best thing ever!
The last time we were all together was in Viterbo...saying our so-longs. =]
Another year won't go by without seeing these amazing friends.

Work yesterday was fun....a bit bizzare knowing that I wouldn't be working there for a while.

Tomorrow.....2am this morning....so in like 2 hours. I leave to SF where I will be in Paris in about 14 hours via Montreal! =]
I cannot wait! I packed super light....well compared to last year. =]
It was amazing to see some friends today. =]
Happy Birthday to my mother.


Baci.

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I'M IN LA, TRICK! [Jun. 30th, 2009|07:18 pm]
I made it! The weather is pretty lovely, cooler than Turlock....much cooler!
Casey and Natalie picked me up. We came back to Natalie's and just layed around relaxed for a bit. We ate a late breakfast/early lunch of yummy In-n-out! Casey's first time! Afterwards we decided to go to Hollywood, pretty packed. Saw The King of Pop's star, overcrowded with flowers and other nonsense. We walked around until we were exausted. Afterwards we went to the Planeterium. Super awesome. Partially because it was free. Then we payed $5 for a dome thing to look at the stars. Where I took a lovely nap! =] 
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This Summer! [Jun. 30th, 2009|12:26 am]
[Current Location |turlock, california]
[Current Mood | excited]

This summer.....this next month actually I will be traveling back to Europe to visit family in Paris and attend the Padus-Araxes Intensive Armenian Language Course in Venice. 
But first I will be going to LA to visit Natalie and Casey (who is going to Taiwan for the summer) whom I met in Italy last year.
It's almost 1am we leave to the airport in less than 2 hours.
I don't think I'll sleep much tonight.....just a hunch.
I am packed at ready to go for both LA and Europe.

I am nervous and excited and anxious all at the same time. But all in a good way! =]
I finally called my family, so I am less nervous and feel more prepared.
This yeah Venice is going to be completley different. I will be staying at a different 'student hostel' with a whole different group of individuals. As Natalie said, I'm probably over thinking everything.

I can't believe that I am doing this....again! Never did I think I would actually be going back to Europe, to see my family, and go back to the Armenian Language course in Venice. Of course I would love to spend more time there, but unfortuately/or fortunately I have school to finish up here. Hopefully one year to go...and not anymore, but we'll just see about that...when I get back this summer of course.

I definaiely want to keep updated with all your lives! So leave me a comment or something telling me about your day! =] I'd love to hear it. 
 

Until next time.
Ciaociaociao.
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Venice. [Apr. 6th, 2009|10:09 pm]
possibly again this summer.
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(no subject) [Mar. 2nd, 2009|07:04 pm]

Spending time with Julie and getting to see Victoria and Amy were great!
It was so nice to see their faces again. I know....werid, but seriously. I missed them.
Thank You JuneBug for everything!

I really want to go to Europe this summer....learn more Armenian....

School is well....school.

this weekend I did the 30 Hour Famine....9th.10th year. it was harder. the hardest.



that's all
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i love my life right now [Feb. 7th, 2009|07:47 pm]
[la musica |goo goo dolls.]


i just hope it's not a phase.




i've realized that i feel like my whole life has been broken up into phases.
seperated by different people.
i finally feel like i have REAL GENUINE people in my life.
thank you. i love you guys.
i just hope this never ends...&hearts;
...well end saddly and slowly
like one day suddenly it's just not there.
the glue that was there from the begning has simply dried up. it's all flakey now.
no gum could ever patch that up.
and someway I know. I KNOW it wont.
somehow i know it's different.....yet all the same.
i don't really know what to make of it.......but do we ever really?



ps. i had so much fun in SF with Eli!
It was a GREAT start to the week and month!!
I also have to thank Amanda and Rob for going to Hawai'i. which gave us the opportunity to go to SF!


next adventure.
Getting to Kansas.
wish me luck.





californias burning burning. burning to the ground.
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ETA three days! [Feb. 4th, 2009|06:09 pm]
[Current Location |good ole Turlock]
[la musica |Pandora.....Michael Buble]

SO, luckily plane tickets have gone way down....to my desitinations.
SO, I'm going to Kansas!! to see Julie!
I hope that I somehow get to see Casey too!
I'm so excited! I haven't seen her in way too long.
Since May when I left her at Fiumicino many moons ago!
I decided that I just had to do it, and for only 202!!
So I'll be on my way to Kansas for a week on Sunday!! =]
I'm way beyond excited to see a familiar face!
It's been too long way too long.

Tante Aguri Gui Li! Ti Vogli Bene Bella!
Ci Vediamo ci vediamo!!
&hearts;


On a boring note, I got a B in my LIBS class. =[
It's all because of that presentation. I did horribly. Next time I'll definatley practice!
I have yet to pick up my notebook so I don't know what part I did bad on, but I just know it was that awful presentation!

On a brighter note, I realized that I have two weeks off until school!!
Hence leaving the state for a week!!
I went into work today =]
Hopefully I'll change more Euros soon.
It's actually at a nice low level. 1.28!!!
When I was in Europe it was practically 1.54 the whole time! If not more!!!

I still cannot belive I WENT TO EUROPE!
I lived there for 8 months.
I met my family in two different countries.
I lived on my own!
I traveled alone!
I met so  many amazing, genuine, beautiful individuals.
My time away really make me see who my true friends are.
and if I didn't figure that out over there, things became CLEAR AS CRYSTAL when I got back.
so THANK YOU WORLD.

I'm trying to get back this summer.
Less that $1000 is my budget for a ticket
And so far Ireland has my back.....
SO BRIT! IRELAND HERE WE COME!!!

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come? [Jan. 12th, 2009|12:51 am]
[Current Location |as always.]
[Current Mood | awake]
[la musica |the train....oh feels like home [italy]]

How am I suppose to do 30 observation hours on top of everyother assignment for this class?
Those 9 papers, 2 presentations? one of each already due on Tuesday?! Come?!!
REALLY?! I just tried to work it out and well I should already have 10 done, I've onlly done 4.
Drastic times call for drastic measures. muahh haha ha ha.

i think i've cried more this week, since i've returned.
and they were all in the movies. hahaha
oh the dramas.
but bride wars was fun and no crying. haha

besides that. this week was really good. really reall good.
yay life. =]
I've been in a great modd latley. great mood.



i still miss italy.
and my friends.
so shut up. ha.



Bonne Nuit!!


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oggi [Jan. 7th, 2009|12:48 pm]
[Current Location |turlock, california]
[la musica |cops. ha]


I have decided that I am going to be happy.
I decided that those negative things in my life aren't important.
So, I'm not going to waste my life even thinking about those things.

I went to Europe, and instead of making it a positive, I've somehow twisted it into a negative.
Yes, I loved it;
Yes, those 8 months were the BEST of my life;
Yes, I cannot wait to go back....

But I'm here now, I have to be happy for what happened.
I made SO many GREAT friends!  that I hope to visit soon!
I saw SO many AMAZING places filled with History and Truth.
I jumped out of my comfort zone and had some beautiful experiences!
That's what I have to concentrate on.
And be happy because I took that leap....and because of this first leap, I will continue to...for the rest of my life.<3

I can't waste my precious moments playing my own violin.
So, Today il 7 de Genniao del anno 2009. I will make the best of everything here, will live in the present, will take my amazing experiences and grow because of them, will keep connections with all my new amazing GENUINE friends around the world, and will simply be happy to be alive because one day I will have the opportunity again and I'll jump at it. =]


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exactly one year ago [Jan. 2nd, 2009|01:08 am]
[Current Location |kitchen.]
[Current Mood | awake]
[la musica |humming of the frige.]


I was getting ready for the best 8 months of my life.
I was not packed yet...but leaving in 2 days.
I was freaking out. excited. happy. thrilled.
Everything at home was going great, better than great.
My future seemed to be going just as amazing, if not better.

Last year is all I've been thinking about.
I know, new year. new experiences. new adventures. new friends. new choices.
But I can't help of thinking about how wonderful [which doesn't even begin to describe my times in italy.germany.spain.france] everything use to be. Yes I know, just like a 'friend' once told me many times... I have to live in the present. Stop worring about the past or the future for that matter, but I cannot. I simply can't.

So as I start this new year, with a new country in mind? Ireland maybe?
I don't know where that was going, but I am excited. I'm happy for this new year.

Although I did reign in the New Year.......[drum roll please] at work. ha......I did it with a smile.
It was one of the best night's at work since I've been back. So I take that as a sign that this new year will be new, but fun, full of smiles, food, new friends, money, and best of all dancing!

Any resolutions you might ask? Yes actually.
1] tomar mas agua
2] floss once a day. ha.
3] learn more italiano. ethpanol. and hyeren.
4] be nicer to everyone
5] have fun no matter what, because we only live this blessed life once.  So we have to make it count. =]]

2OO9 bring it on. =]
I'm ready for you.


Shenorhavor Nor Dari yev Soorp Zoonoont!
Bachigner!
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ohyeah! [Dec. 16th, 2008|01:52 pm]
[Current Location |shithole, california]
[Current Mood | one more time.......]
[la musica |daft punk!!!!!]


you change your mind like a girl changes clothes!!



ok soooo. I"M DONE WITH SCHOOL.
for a few weeks! but what the hell!
so amazing!
I'm so happy.
I'm off with Britney tomorrow to Santa Cruz to live the hippie life. <3
Then work. work. this weekend. Church. In n out. the usual sundayness. <3
Maybe LA next week? idk yet.

 

I'm so excited to be out of school.
Less stress! YEAHHHHHH!!!
And boys. I'm done. I'm over you. </3. Done. =]
Hopefully New Years is fun, considering the fact that I'm working!!
I'll make it fun, I always do.

I'm trying to get to Vegas on the 5th?
whhat? oh yeah. maybe. we'll see.
i can't wait to see half the gang.
i think this is just somthing i HAVE to do. =]]

It's been almost 4 months. what the hell?!
Last year this time. amazing. I'll just have to make it better!
How? I don't know yet, hopefully it'll just come to me like last year!? =]
that would be fun and nice.
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(no subject) [Dec. 12th, 2008|10:41 am]
[Current Location |podunk, california]
[Current Mood | artistic]
[la musica |britney spears - circus]


is back...slowly.
but I am working on something.
to portray how i'm feeling. it's pretty much amazing.
so far i'm happy with it.





and. i'm super excited about santa cruz.
like ecccccstatic!

and. i just got the new bs cd. hahaha
yeah i caved it.
i like it.
it pumps me up.
yay.

and. my cousin just had a baby.
leila. i hear her whinning. haha.
she's super cute in all her pictures.
can't wait to see that baby.
hopefully christmas time. yay

and. two finals left!!
yay. it's like they started out crappy and are ending okay. haha
but these classes, i might just ace. yayy.

and. on a sad note my great grandma isn't doing too good.
so. keep her in your prayers please and thank you.

and. i just got a new job.
and. i've already been called in!
haha too bad for finals.
i said no because i want to rest.
after finals though it's full speed ahead.
SO europe is DEF happening brit!

and. i decided that next semster i'm gonna try to look cute.
i mean hello where else am i suppose to find a cute boy? ha
plus it makes me feel good.

and i keep saying nothing has been going on.
i just have to wake up.
open my eyes.
tons of fantastic blessings around.
it's turlock. it's changing me. and i don't want to.
i want to be me from italy. and if people don't like that then whatever.
i'm over it.
i'm excited to live life.
it's like i have to take myself to a place i was before italy.
i can't be mean. it's not me. so whatever.


welll before i start to hardcore start memorizing final stuff.
i'm gonna paint. listen to bs. drink some hot coco. and relax

revalation.
because life is just starting.
well it's just going into andother gear and i have to be ready for it


fyi venicei s underwater! what!?
 

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sensible selves could you please shut up. [Dec. 5th, 2008|01:19 pm]
[Current Location |what i'm hoping is just a nightmare]
[Current Mood | by Americans]
[la musica |I MISS FRENCH MUSIC <3 it's cute.]


 
Must I really say more?




So I never really updated. Just stating the obvious.
Reason: No real internet connection in the flooded city of Venezia.
"So why didn't you update when you got back?" [not that anyone would really ask that. because no one cares.]
Reason: I accidently deleted my Venezia writtings. =[
2ndReason: Shortly thereafter, my computer ceased to turn on....ever.
So I'm on Shit Out of Luck. Thanks. Thanks a lot.
Who do I blame this on? Well America of course. I mean if I was still in Europe then none of this would be a problem, and I wouldn't be stressin out about it. Thanks America, thanks a lot.



If you really want to know. Just ask. So far maybe less than a handful have asked and truly wanted to know. Those have typically been 'new friends' or those who have actually traveled out of the small minded, invidualistc, annoying, rude, imperialistic, "English Only" country that many of us call 'home'.

It's been a little over 3 months since I came back.
And I still feel like shit.
Every day I wake up and can't think of what's the point? Why am I even here? Who cares?
I should have stayed. Is all I keep thinking about.
What am I living for here? - to go to school; to get a high stress job; that will probably kill me at a premature age; to be grumpy all the time; to not say hi to friends as we pass in the grocery store; to watch people looking down as they try to avoid eye contact with people they grew up with; [yev ilen yev ilen]
What was I looking forward to? Why was I so damn excited to come home? and TO WHAT?
Of course nothing is the same, I was gone for 8 months!! But I don't belive people here changed for the better. I belived they changed for the worse.

People need to WAKE UP! Their is more to life than who has the best phone; who can drive faster than you on the highway; what new 'fashion' is out [it's not really fashion here. it's just dumb girls in abercrombie and emerican eagle shit]; to not see your friends for months because of what simply being busy? [oh yeah because you work on sundays too. never have had a day off. or even cared enough to call]

I wanted to share my stories with you; but since no one cares enough to ask about them, to see pictures.
Yes, the pictures were for me, but when I was taking them I would think "how can I take this picture to where it captures all the amazingness so that everyone can see 1/10000000000000000000000th of how beautiful it is?" I would think of that. Now I don't know why I cared so much.

I guess this has turned into a rant, and well that's what my life has turned into.
I was living beautifully in Europe, now back here I don't even know.
I'm starting to fall back into who I was before I left; A CLONE just like everyone else in this cow town.
[of course their are a few exceptions, but unfortunatly the majority has just been dissapointing]

I don't know what else to say really.
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tick tock [Jul. 28th, 2008|10:16 pm]
[la musica |90s Music.....ha]

time is flying by - correction - HAS flown by.
I leave Wednesday Morning.
Hopefully it's not rainning, pouring. I'm hopeing for warm weather.
I have almost everything packed in one bag, when I already paid for two.
I sent home a box today. Yay Now I'm down 100 euros.
What else.
The kids and Carine's family comes tomorrow night.

I started saying my goodbyes, more like see you laters....
It's just werid.
But I'm excited too, to go home soon.


The baby is heavy...gosh I got a work out carrying that little thing.
So Today the kids come home...it's exciting but also sad.

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